Xx,
I would be lying if I told you I hadn’t thought about you. I remember those enormous sunglasses you were wearing the first time I saw you; you thought you looked so sophisticated and I couldn’t help but fall in love with you and your naivety. And I fell instantly. I was enthralled by your goodness. And from the moment I started loving you, I couldn’t imagine a life without you in it. I know sometimes you doubted, you were unsure of my love, but I want you to know now that it was always real. I can say it now because I have nothing to gain: I always loved you. And for what it’s worth (probably nothing to you): I still love you.
I realize now how hard-headed I was. I realize now that I made so many mistakes with you. I also realize it was my own fault that your love for me ended. I drained it. I remember you use to say: “love is like a plant, you have to water it every day”. And I didn’t. And I know that now. I pushed you away so many times. I took you for granted. You were right to leave me. I just wish you had given me a second chance. I did beg. I did promise you I would be a better man. Why didn’t you take me back? Did I really destroy all the love you had for me? Was there not even an ounce left for us to try to rebuild our life together? Or was it pride?
I hated you for not giving ”us” another try. I hated that you were so cold. Isn’t that ironic? I managed to tarnish our relationship and drain your love for me by being cold myself, and in the end I was cursing you for treating me exactly how I treated you. One of my life’s many ironies.
I don’t know why I decided today of all days to write you. I don’t know why today I miss you more than ever. I don’t know why I haven’t been able to love anyone since you’ve been gone. Today, I feel like I have to try one more time to get you back. Please Xx, come back. It’s never too late to be happy. Let’s try to be happy together. Lets live out all those dreams we had. Please come back. Please come back. I’m tired of crying, I’m tired of being sad, I’m tired of missing you. I’m tire of being half the man I know I can be.
Please, after all this time, forgive this foolish man and come back to me.
Yours Always,
Xy.
I think you should give him another chance.
I disagree with the previous commentator. People in our lives get one chance to prove to us what they’re made of. ANd in this case, it’s quite obvious he doesn’t deserve the wonderful girl he had.
This is exactly what Im going through… I took someone for granted… so granted that he stopped loving me… and I am still suffering because of that.
“I don’t know why I haven’t been able to love anyone since you’ve been gone.” – I am still asking this to myself… I can’t stop thinking in him… and I can’t fall in love…
Once again Lali… thanks…