A Life Less Ordinary September 15, 2006

I often wonder why the world is like it is. Why we harbor so much evil, why we live among such hate, why we use our free will to cage our souls… It’s easy to see why so many have lost hope, why so many have stopped fighting, why it seems so much easier to give up and let ourselves go with the flow of permanent insatisfaction.

I was on the verge of giving up the fight. I thought I was jaded beyond repair. I had no energy left to navigate the rough sea that life always placed in front of me.

And then there was light. Happiness stormed into my life and took over my being. And I realized that our lives can change in an instant. Our journey here can be re-routed from one moment to the next. The story of our lives isn’t written for us, we write our own story as we go. And that is the beauty of this life we have been given, it is ours to do with it what we please.

So if you don’t give up, if you keep your heart open, if you are ready to seize the day, then those life changing opportunities won’t pass you by. You will grab them. You will take them and run and never look back. And you will always be grateful, because you know how sad you were, how lonely, how close to the verge you came; but that ounce of desire in your heart that refused to dissipate, that refused to let go, allowed you to see the light shining down.

I have been to the end of the world, I have been at the bottom of the sorrow-filled pit, I’ve been to hell and back… And I have come out stronger, braver, a better woman and a better human being. And I still live in a world full of hatred, full of anger, full of intolerance and envy and greed. I can’t change that. I am one in 7 billion. But I can change the winds that blow inside me. I choose to live. I choose to be happy. I choose to share my journey with the man I love. I choose to lead my life my way because I couldn’t live any other way… I am, after all, nothing more than a reflection of the choices I make. And I choose to live a life less ordinary…

“Carpe Diem, lads! Seize the day! Make your lives Extraordinary!”

It’s been a while September 7, 2006

It’s been a while since I felt the sweet taste of desire tickle my tongue and invade my mouth.
It’s been a while since one look, one momentary glance, could stop my heart for a moment, only to make it start pounding with fury an instant later.
It’s been a while since a smile could melt every icey pore in my body.
It’s been a while since the touch of my skin sent me rocketing to pleasures which words could only fail to describe.
It’s been a while since I felt so whole, so complete, so utterly me.
It’s been a while, but now you’re here, and the wait is finally over.